Gasket blown

I had it I had it I have had it!!!  I don't understand why I strive for excellence.im angry when it's doesn't happen when I get told excuses and nothing but excuses I just want this wheel to turn already I honestly dislike the fighting we do I want a good wholesome marriage I want my kids to be respectful and self discipline we all have a job I want it to  be  equal and smoothly run I need peace I need love I need assurance I know things will change I have to keep believing it will get better